I’m leaving for work in four hours and I got a few things in mind which keep me from dozing off this afternoon.
First is my weight. I already mentioned how comfortable I am with being size 8/10 or 10/12. I don’t give a damn about having to look stunning 24/7 simply because I’m just not the type who wants to look great day in and out. I’m neither an exotic beauty nor an eyecandy. I’m just a normal-looking, olive-skinned, chubby 20ish female.
But there are times when I want to see myself looking absolutely adorable even on a v-neck tee and washed denims. Not to impress other people, but to satisfy myself.
Diet makes me unhealthy. It drives my acids into nuts. I end up binging, and with a stone-hard tummy. I tend to consume more food days or weeks after I shed some pounds and the cycle starts all over again. I never made it through.
I don’t look awful with my clothes on but I’m not damn satisfied with my clothes off. Like I said, “I’m my own worst critic.” Thus, this calls for a workout. A routine. An activity.
And that begins tomorrow. I’ll come to work with my gym clothes and hit those rides after shift. Fingers-crossed.
Second, I want to lessen my reblogs, or start anew. I want a clean slate on Tumblr but it’s difficult to gain the same amount of followers which I’m apparently concerned of. (‘Coz I blog as a hobby. To write. To read. And, to be heard.)
I want to make a blog which makes more sense. Something that goes beyond relationships, famous quotations, and the usuals - Paris, movies, fashion, interiors, typographies, etc.
I want to make it big this time. ‘Coz I won’t be enrolling this semester. It goes back to writing, reading, staying home, capturing photos, and whatever comes along the way.
Third, I have to sleep now. As in now. I have to work 5x harder on the next five work days because I’ll be gone for 6 days and it’s gonna affect my statistics big time. We got mandatory leaves so I’ll just go North.
Thinking about whether moving my photoblog to Wordpress and purchasing a domain, and or deleting my Tumblr account to start from scratch and scraps of my old Tumblr.
What d’you think?